METANOIA

Metanoia (N.)-the journey of changing one's mind heart,self or way of life.

People are afraid, afraid of themselves, of their own life, their own reality and mostly their own feelings. People talk how great love is , Yes! I second that. Love is great but there is another side for it as well. Love is pain. A pain that demands itself to be felt, explode and wakes you up. Our fears are free floating . We run away from sorrows from pain and grief , because we were told and taught that pain is evil, grief is dangerous and we all kept running from it. We still do. If you are reluctant to feel pain, how can you be stronger than it. 

If love is nothing to be hidden, then why should pain be. After all it is a feeling. Why would you be ashamed to carry your won feelings. It is your reality. Embrace your feelings. Carry it with you. Make it your strength, grow stronger.you cannot just live in a rut all your life .Now don't get me wrong when i say this i don't mean to tell you to advertise your pain or fears all I am trying to tell is not to run away from it ,do not push the bad feelings aside its only when you feel them to their best you realise the value of good once.they are like a two sides of the coin.People often say let time heal things ,yes it will..! provided you give space for those feelings to come to you and go by.so stay strong,embrace your feelings

“Pain is important; how we evade it, how we succumb to it, how we deal with it. How we transcend it” .Audre Lorde 

for ever

He opened his wallet. There behind all the visiting and atm cards was a tissue kept well folded. His wallet was shabby, crushed notes, worn and torn cards but this piece of tissue kept well folded. He took it out with at most care. He held it like a new born baby. He opened the tissue to c the mark of those pink lips. Tears ran down his eye. The mark of a kiss in pink. So perfectly imprinted on the tissue. He held it close to his heart. As tears ran down his cheek to his well fitted shirt, he remembered the time he spent with her. It was sure he missed her.

He thought about her smile and even when tears filled his eye. He smiled he held the tissue closer to his heart. He could hear her call him, he turned back with joy, just like a kid who had heard an ice cream van come, to soon realise it was the voice inside his head. The voice of her laughter lingered around his ear. He missed even more. He placed the tissue back in his wallet.that at was the only way he carried a piece of her everywhere he went.

He sat on his bed. The clock struk 10:45pm .he realised yet another day has gone by without her. And thoughts of her kept him awake. He had lost his most treasured blessing. He couldn’t sleep that night.

He is not bitter any more, he knew what he had was real, he hoped to see her at some point of time in future and smile at her with joy and think of days how they spent time walking through the roads, talking about everything under the sun, holding hands, learning from each other laughing out loud and growing in love.

Best love is the kind of loves that enlightens your soul, uproots you from the entire world and makes you want more .it sets a flame in your heart and give peace to the mind and soul. That was what they had. That was what she had given him that is what he gave her back and hoped to give for ever

WHAT IF....!!!

"What "and "if" are two non frightening words, put them together side by side and they can wound you for the rest of your life

Down the lane when you sit down and turn back and you see the road you have travelled was not what you wanted and u feel like drifting back and you can’t, then you’d think “what if”

What if I  had spoke my mind out, what if I had tried harder, what if I didn’t make that decision...that my friend is when you feel like going back in time. It happens to us mostly when you cannot have the courage to speak out what you want. Maybe if we did, life would have changed for most of us. Oh ya..!! That includes me...

We are all time travellers but we can never go back. That is what makes the journey the most exciting. Choosing what you want to do ,what you want in life is not a quick decision make sure u think about it over and over again ,remember as you go forward the going gets harder and tougher .making the right choice shall hopefully not make you want to say “what if”. Like they say your decisions today make your tomorrow

To fly high is what most of us dreamt but somewhere down the line we all get tied up. Tied up with responsibilities, with the act of satisfying family and most importantly society and in this rat race we forget to live for ourselves. We forget that we had a dream and miles to go and somewhere in midlife probably we shouldn’t regret we hurried it all up.