METANOIA

Metanoia (N.)-the journey of changing one's mind heart,self or way of life.

People are afraid, afraid of themselves, of their own life, their own reality and mostly their own feelings. People talk how great love is , Yes! I second that. Love is great but there is another side for it as well. Love is pain. A pain that demands itself to be felt, explode and wakes you up. Our fears are free floating . We run away from sorrows from pain and grief , because we were told and taught that pain is evil, grief is dangerous and we all kept running from it. We still do. If you are reluctant to feel pain, how can you be stronger than it. 

If love is nothing to be hidden, then why should pain be. After all it is a feeling. Why would you be ashamed to carry your won feelings. It is your reality. Embrace your feelings. Carry it with you. Make it your strength, grow stronger.you cannot just live in a rut all your life .Now don't get me wrong when i say this i don't mean to tell you to advertise your pain or fears all I am trying to tell is not to run away from it ,do not push the bad feelings aside its only when you feel them to their best you realise the value of good once.they are like a two sides of the coin.People often say let time heal things ,yes it will..! provided you give space for those feelings to come to you and go by.so stay strong,embrace your feelings

“Pain is important; how we evade it, how we succumb to it, how we deal with it. How we transcend it” .Audre Lorde 

for ever

He opened his wallet. There behind all the visiting and atm cards was a tissue kept well folded. His wallet was shabby, crushed notes, worn and torn cards but this piece of tissue kept well folded. He took it out with at most care. He held it like a new born baby. He opened the tissue to c the mark of those pink lips. Tears ran down his eye. The mark of a kiss in pink. So perfectly imprinted on the tissue. He held it close to his heart. As tears ran down his cheek to his well fitted shirt, he remembered the time he spent with her. It was sure he missed her.

He thought about her smile and even when tears filled his eye. He smiled he held the tissue closer to his heart. He could hear her call him, he turned back with joy, just like a kid who had heard an ice cream van come, to soon realise it was the voice inside his head. The voice of her laughter lingered around his ear. He missed even more. He placed the tissue back in his wallet.that at was the only way he carried a piece of her everywhere he went.

He sat on his bed. The clock struk 10:45pm .he realised yet another day has gone by without her. And thoughts of her kept him awake. He had lost his most treasured blessing. He couldn’t sleep that night.

He is not bitter any more, he knew what he had was real, he hoped to see her at some point of time in future and smile at her with joy and think of days how they spent time walking through the roads, talking about everything under the sun, holding hands, learning from each other laughing out loud and growing in love.

Best love is the kind of loves that enlightens your soul, uproots you from the entire world and makes you want more .it sets a flame in your heart and give peace to the mind and soul. That was what they had. That was what she had given him that is what he gave her back and hoped to give for ever

WHAT IF....!!!

"What "and "if" are two non frightening words, put them together side by side and they can wound you for the rest of your life

Down the lane when you sit down and turn back and you see the road you have travelled was not what you wanted and u feel like drifting back and you can’t, then you’d think “what if”

What if I  had spoke my mind out, what if I had tried harder, what if I didn’t make that decision...that my friend is when you feel like going back in time. It happens to us mostly when you cannot have the courage to speak out what you want. Maybe if we did, life would have changed for most of us. Oh ya..!! That includes me...

We are all time travellers but we can never go back. That is what makes the journey the most exciting. Choosing what you want to do ,what you want in life is not a quick decision make sure u think about it over and over again ,remember as you go forward the going gets harder and tougher .making the right choice shall hopefully not make you want to say “what if”. Like they say your decisions today make your tomorrow

To fly high is what most of us dreamt but somewhere down the line we all get tied up. Tied up with responsibilities, with the act of satisfying family and most importantly society and in this rat race we forget to live for ourselves. We forget that we had a dream and miles to go and somewhere in midlife probably we shouldn’t regret we hurried it all up.

Gandhi’s nation

Waking up every morning we are all unhappy to look at news papers or tune into news, because nobody wants to hear a bad news. The media and newspapers are so filled with violence, death tolls, natures disasters, rape, corruption...and we are forced to think that nothing good ever happen around the world. I even think lot of people quit reading newspapers for this reason. May be we should save the front page for news that bring in happiness and hope (if there are any)

Its bliss if kids come back home safe after school, bliss if u get back home safe and sound after work. We all live with fear in this nation. There was a time when we feared and bowed before British. Now we fear our own people. People of same nation. We have grown with time, in technology, in life style, infrastructure and even culture, but what really remains in the fear. The fear of not having a safe life. This is the new phase of Gandhi ji’s nation, a nation where  waste everywhere around except in the dustbin, no girl child is still born with the right to think and live for herself(oh yes..! let’s not forget this is only if she is given the freedom to be born, she’s killed in the womb mostly),where all men are forced to get a white collard job to make family proud, one time meal is considered luxury, education has not spread its wings to all. The united nation divided by diversity is fighting among themselves for land water and everything possible.Unemployment has touched the lives of plenty of youth(giving birth to new job search sites).Everyone blames about Brain drain,oh come on we cant blame them after all . Our society has murdered dreams and new ideas of plenty of people.Its cut down the wings of most of the youngsters who had a different dream.

Lets forget about all negative part of the nation.All is not bad with the nation.There were lot of proud moments this year.Our nation has launched a satellite to Mars."Feminism" was all over media, from politics to music,its reached audience like never before.This is the beginning of better safe India for women .Swatch Bharath has started up a vision in the mind of all Indian's to keep the nation clean .We have started having tobacco free villages and city's.India's economy has been rising.Common Wealth games had lot of successful athletes from India this year.The story goes on.The rise of India looks unstoppable.

Let’s hope things change for the best, let’s work for a better India, let’s do our little part, let us kick start the change. May things be better in 2015, 2014 have definitely had some good and bad changes .some day we shall make ourselves proud and fulfil the dreams of the man who gave us the nation.

I turned 22 few months ago...it hit me the other day that I can no more relate myself to TV show now. My fantasy of being a mindless vapid teen ager who falls in love with a sparkly “Mr. Perfect” is long gone. So I find solace in the fact that I may have actually acquired some wisdom after two decades .so here are some things that crossed my mind

 Let’s start with something real important.Friends; you need friends, not just to party but to stand by you. Introvert extrovert whatever you are find at least few good friends. The kind of F.R.I.E.N.D.S friends. They are really going to be there for you when you need them

The next major part is to dream, and when we do that lets Dream big. Don’t let an adage stop you from planning for future. Everything may not go according to plan but you should always try. At the end of the day you will be wishing, that you should have followed your dream and that you shouldn’t have quit even before you tried

May be we should stop playing the blame game .Blaming someone takes the power away from you. Whenever you are in a rut, stop looking around and blaming others, think what can be done next. Or maybe even turn the searchlight inwards

Make your own chance. You might have done engineering (like me) or some degree you are supposed to, but it does not mean you can digress and find something else to love. If you are sure you are happy about it and you can do it...work on it..!! Don’t sit at home and mope how no one is giving you a chance. If you need something then you must work for it.

Next on list is to taste failure.Having your heart broken once in a while is invertible, by friends, parents, girlfriends / boyfriends, or anyone for the instance (poor grades do count). “Pain demands to be felt”. But you must understand that this is just a chapter of your life, this phase will be soon gone and prepare yourself for something new and wonderful

 And the last one would be realization. Realize age is not something solid. It’s just one day after the next Realise that you haven’t learnt anything Time screws everyone and you still don’t know anything, and at some point of time you realize, reality is bitter than anything you ever imagine and you realise to be alive at all is a miracle and a lesson of life